Scary as hell

We know that with this disease at any moment we could lose a number of things. Our ability to walk, our ability to communicate, see, hear, our scence of touch to pretty much lose anything at anytime. About 10 minutes ago I lost hearing in both ears, complete silence. It may have only lasted a minute or two but it was the scariest minute or two of my life. My son had just come in to say goodnight to me and give me a hug. I instantly thought that was the last time I was going to hear my son speak. I thought it was last time I was going to hear anything ever again. I was crying uncontrollably. Then I heard my husband ask "are you in pain?"  I could hear again.  I kept crying and my husband and understand why. This time I was crying because of the fear. If this does happen when I lose my hearing is this how it's going be? Just like that. In an instant. Silence. It scares the shit out of me.  It makes me hate this disease even more.